I never quite learned how to swim...

BLUE

I didn't want to know
I just didn't want to know
Best to keep things in the shallow end
Cause I never quite learned how to swim

I just didn't want to know
Didn't want, didn't want,
Didn't want, didn't want

Close my eyes just to look at you
Taken by the seamless vision
I close my eyes,
Ignore the smoke,
Ignore the smoke

Call it aftermath, she's turning blue
Such a lovely color for you
Call it aftermath, she's turning blue
While I just sit and stare at you

Because I don't want to know
I didn't want to know
I just didn't want to know
I just didn't want

Mistook their nods for an approval
Just ignore the smoke and smile

Call it aftermath, she's turning blue
Such a lovely color for you
Call it aftermath, she's turning blue
Such a perfect color for your eyes
Call it aftermath, she's turning blue
Such a lovely color for you
Call it aftermath, she's turning blue
While I just sit and stare at you

A PERFECT CIRCLE

lOST AGAIN

Lost again
Broken and weary
Unable to find my way
Tail in hand
Dizzy and clearly unable to
Just let this go

I am surrendering to the gravity and the unknown
Catch me heal me lift me back up to the sun
I choose to live

I fell again
Like a baby unable to stand on my own
Tail in hand
Dizzy and clearly unable to just let this go
I am surrendering to the gravity and the unknown
Catch me heal me lift me back up to the sun
I choose to live, I choose to live, I choose to live

Catch me heal me lift me back up to the sun
Help me survive the bottom

Calm these hands before they
Snare another pill and
Drive another nail down another
needy hole please release me

I am surrendering to the gravity and the unknown
Catch me heal me lift me back up to the sun
I choose to live, I choose to live

A PERFECT CIRCLE

Save me - Aimee Mann

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São só erros todas as minhas mentiras para me tornar melhor ou mais adequada, as mentiras que falam mais de mim do ke todas as tuas verdades, falo demais para não dizer coisa nenhuma mais valia emudecer, tudo para não pensar em precipícios e imaginar-me a ganhar asas sobre eles...não costumo ser assim, não sou assim como tu dizes que sou, sou antes aquilo que imagino ser, não és o meu espelho deformante mas e então como sou eu, se não sou de ti?... e ke kuantidade de mim em bruto poderás tu ainda aguentar?...até desaparecermos...por fim...na parte de fora de nós, na beira do abismo que me separa de ti...o relógio nunca pára, nunca pára a vida só por um momento só para apanhar a respiração das coisas, para apanhar a temperatura da tua pele mesmo aki à mão de semear ela devia parar para me demorar mais em ti, mas em vez disso passo o tempo a ir-me embora sem ter onde regressar quando queria voltar a casa, seres tu esse caminho de casa, sem medos sem culpas nem nada...mas nada vai mudar, as feridas vão continuar expostas sob espessa maquilhagem...(como é que chegámos até aqui) a gravidade desta realidade a puxar-nos para baixo, a vontade de nos atordoar de nos alienar mas kualker ke seja a droga não vai passar este desconforto que nos faz escrever, falar, abrir a boca a comunicar vazios, se as palavras são só boas para manipular para magoar, boas para fugir e fingir que não se está cansado, que não se está errado nem farto deste mundo ao contrario e no entanto continuamos vivos o sangue a pulsar dentro das veias, a esperar os dias que se seguem uns aos outros vazios, forçando-nos a acreditar que tudo continua a fazer sentido e que logo à noite vais-me ver cantar boca seca prestes a queimar na garganta a voz que se recusa a gritar mas qualquer coisa vai soar bem tenho a certeza que desta vez não vou desistir, não vamos falhar, vamo-nos contagiar de alegria...

Somewhere I Belong

I had nothing to say
and i get lost in the nothingness inside of me
(i was confused)
and i live it all out to find, but im not the only person wit these things in mind
(inside of me)
but all that they can see the words revealed
is the only real thing that i got left to feel
(nothing to lose)
just stuck hollow and alone
and the fault is my own and the fault is my own

i wanna heal i wanna feel what i thought was never real
i wanna let go of the pain ive felt so long.
erase all the pain til its gone
i wanna heal i wanna feel like im close to something real.
i wanna find something ive wanted all along
somewhere i belong

and i got nothing to say. i cant believe i didnt fall right down on my face
(i was confused)
look at everywhere only to find.
it is not the way i had imagined it all in my mind.
(so what am i)
what do i have but negativity
cuz i cant trust no one by the way everyone is looking at me
(nothing to lose)
nothing to gain im hollow and alone
and the fault is my own
and the fault is my own

I will never know myself until i do this on my own
cuz i will never feel anything else until my wounds are healed
i will never be anything til i break away from me
i will break away. ill find myself today

Linking Park

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why do ppl always remember you when you fail and fall and never when you´re alright and standing up on your own?…because that´s what´s expected from a grown up person to do...you just have to hang on without making a lot of fuss, and quickly pay all your bills, cause they just don´t give a damn for what you´re thinking and feeling toward anything, as long as you behave properly, as long as you play along with all their stupid rules, you´re alright i guess...and you never grow up you just keep growing older and colder and confused day by day till you cant take it no more and you cant leave all your pain behind...once they told me that when i reached the thirty-something i would, somehow, understand everything and things around me would be easier, so why aren't they?...i just keep coming up undone I'm twisted and innocent and i don't give a fuck for what they say or think about it as long as you´re on my side, so are you?...cause alone i break...

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